Think about this . . .
If an external team of three people audited your life, what would it reveal? The audit would be caring and impartial, honest and real, intelligent and insightful. Their only task would be to observe and record your desires and dreams, your level of happiness, the quality of your relationships, your health, and your production given your current situation.
Then they would assess those results against what they observe in your mindset, attitude, behavior, self-awareness, self-discipline, and self-confidence. What would that story tell?
Since you probably aren’t going to hire a team to audit your life, the responsibility falls on you. Audit your life. It tells the truth about what’s going on and why.
Do the work.